THIS IS THE LAST STRAW ALRIGHT! I HAVE ASKED FOR THE LAST TIME FOR PEOPLE NOT TO RESPOND TO TILLY AND NO ONE LISTENED!
NOW, EVERYONE'S GOT 24 HRS TO GET OUT OF THE GUILD, FOR I AM GOING TO KILL THIS ENTIRE THING! I WARNED EVERYONE AND NO
ONE LISTENED. NOW THERE WILL BE NO GUILD FOR YOU PEOPLE TO RESPOND ON! GO TO HER FREAKIN GUILD FOR ALL I CARE YOU TRAITOROUS
INGRATES I SO GRACIOUS BENT OVER BACKWARDS FOR! I JUST LOVE HOW MY GENEROSITY IS SOON FORGOTTEN BY SO MANY! SPECIALLY MATT
AND SHIEKIE! NO MATTER, I AM REMOVING ALL MY ACCOUNTS TODAY, AND BLOWING UP THIS GUILD TOMORROW! YOU PEOPLE WANT TO SIDE WITH
THAT B1TCH TILLY, BE MY GUEST! THEN YOU'RE NO FREAKIN FRIENDS OF MINE! NONE OF YOU GIVE A CRAP ABOUT ME AND THE G** D@MN GRACIOUS
THINGS I HAVE DONE FOR THIS GUILD!
NONE OF YOU REALIZE HOW MUCH I'VE DONE FOR YOU PEOPLE HERE! SOON FORGOTTEN HOW I PROTECTED EVERYONE AND STOOD BESIDE EVERYONE
WHEN THE CHIPS WERE DOWN! AND SPECIALLY YOU, SHIEKIE! I STOOD BEHIND YOU THE ENTIRE WAY AFTER YOUR FRIEND COMMITTED SU1C1DE,
AND WHAT DO I GET?! BLOODY TRAITORESS! THANK YOU SHIEKIE FOR YOUR WONDERFUL KINDNESS IN RETURN FOR WHAT I SO GRACIOUSLY GAVE
I JUST LOVE THE BLOODY BASK-STABBING I'VE RECEIVED OVER A G D@MN, BLOODY PICTURE! A G D@MMN INANIMATE OBJECT GETTING IN
THE WAY OF FRIENDSHIPS, CAUSING CHAOS, MAKING NOISE! GAH, MORE THEN IT'S WORTH! YOU WANT THE BLOODY OBJECT REMOVED!? FINE!
YOU'LL GET YOUR WISH AS THERE WILL BE NO GUILD FOR IT TO BE ON BY TOMORROW!
I AM NO ONE DOOR MAT, AND NEVER WILL BE! NO ONE SHOWED THIS KIND OF PROTECTION FOR ME WHEN MY BLOODY STORY WAS PLAGIARIZED
3 TIMES ON FANFICTION, OR WHEN THE BLOODY D@MN MST WAS DONE! BUT, EVERYONE SOON JUMPS TO THE PROTECTION OF SOMEONE ELSE! ONE-SIDED
I SAY! THIS WHOLE BLOODY THING IS ONE-SIDED! F%^$ IT ALL! I SAID I DIDN'T NEED THIS BLOODY GOD FORSAKEN GUILD, AND I MEAN
WHAT I SAY! AT LEAST ALL THE OTHER PEOPLE ARE FRIENDLY AND NICE OVER THERE, AND DON'T ARGUE OVER STUPID CRAP SUCH AS THIS!
NO ONE CARES HOW MUCH I HURT NOW, AND I AM NOT WORRIED. I AM WAY PAST APATHETIC NOW, AND AT THE POINT WHERE NOTHING COULD
MATTER! I HAVE WONDERFUL TILLY TO THANK FOR MY NEW ATTITUDE! I ALWAYS USED TO CARE, BUT WHY BOTHER? NO ONE GIVES A $H1T ABOUT
ME! SO, WHY SHOULD I?! NOOO, A BLOODY INANIMATE OBJECT, A D@MN PICTURE IS MORE IMPORTANT THEN HUMAN LIFE, AND YOU CAN HAVE
IT! LET THE BLOODY THING RUNS YOUR LIVES, IT DOESN'T RUN MINE! AS THE PHOENIX DIES AND RISES FROM IT'S OWN ASHES, SO WILL
THIS GUILD. I WILL START THE HE11 OVER IF I HAVE TO, AND AS MANY TIMES AS NEED BE! I AM THAT PHOENIX, IN SPIRIT, WITH DREAMS,
HOPES, AND COMPASSION THAT MOST OF YOU DO NOT KNOW! LET THE PHOENIX RISE ONCE MORE, SO SHE MAY PREVAIL!!
FINAL NOTE: GOOD BYE EVERYONE AND I HOPE YOU'LL FIND NEW GUILDS TO GO TO. I ALREADY HAVE ONE! -=HITS THE AUTO-DESTRUCT
Re: no links_queen
Sorry Linkie jr. The destruction has already begun. This is the HARDEST decsion I have EVER made, but, I say WHAT I mean
to do, and THIS is my proof! I'll let you join my other guild. DO NOT under any circumstances tell ANYone the link to this
guild! I DON'T want some people here going there, and stirring up trouble for my guild leader.
I removed all my bloody accounts, took everyone off the council except Snapps(MY TRUE friend on this bloody sinking ship!),
and removed ALL admin functions! You people have treaded on a thin wire with me, and it SNAPPED! Now, everyone reaps the consequences!
Next them, think before you become a bloody traitor against me and side with my enemies! I was gracious in the beginning,
but, I am not so nice ANYMORE! AND... if you SIDE or SIDED with Tilly, forget my bloody e-mail, forget my bloody AIM and MSN
SN's and BLOODY FORGET ABOUT ME! I DON'T need traitors, and I DON'T need INGRATES!
As the b1tch Tilly once said to me... "I can live without people and those kind of qualities." AND I WILL ALSO!
If you people want to be her friend, EVEN AFTER all the rotten things she's said about some of you on the MST board, SPECIALLY
YOU SHIEKIE, then be my guest! But, maybe you won't feel so compelled to side with her AFTER seeing what she said! Here, go
to the MST board, shift through the archives and READ what she said about you WHILE you were having those su1c1de thoughts.
http://mstings.tripod.com [invalid link]
But, if you DECIDE after reading them that YOU DON'T like her, DON'T come crying back to me on how m3333an she was to
you! You've ALREADY burnt the bridge between us, and THERE'S NO TURNING BACK NOW! ANY OTHER TAKERS?!
Lets burn SOME MORE bridges while where at it! I am all up to a bon fire tonight! here REALLY ISN'T going to be anything
to save this guild now! I believe EVEN formal apologies won't help this time! What's done is done, and a lesson MUST be learned
here, today. Next time, DO WHAT your guild leader says, and DON'T take advantage of his/her generosity when it's SO graciously
given! Remember, if people DIDN'T have such insubordination, DIRECT insurrection, then MAYBE this guild wouldn't be on its
way to its doom!
Think of THAT next time you defy a guild leader's DIRECT orders!
This is my FINAL message. Any other business, apologies and or complaints can be directed to my e-mail now. This guild
is NOW destroyed.
Goodbye. I hope everyone does well out there.
-Links Queen signing off.
I have a LAST few words.
If people want to UNDERSTAND why I got so upset, read the e-mail I sent to DG. This explains PERFECTALLY WHY I did what
Letter to DG:
...????? O_o !!!!!! WAIDDAMINUTE?! You're LISA?! The VERY same one who Beta'ed my fics?! O.o O.o O.o O.O
I THOUGHT something wasn't right when a copy of Forbidden Love with the title encoded in that special font I used showed
up on the MST board.
I know I only used that specific font on my computer and it changed when I posted it on the guild. You were the only other
person to receive a copy of that fic.
No... I... I cannot hate you, I REFUSE to! You had been SO kind to me. Beta'ing my fics. Listening to my feelings. Just
being my friend all together.
Oh... God I am struggling so hard not to cry hard. I am literally crying while writing this, and struggling to hold from
bursting out. Oh God... If only words could show my actual sadness at this point... My only question is... Why? Why the deception,
the charade? You could've came outright and told me who you were.
Regardless, your kindness and endearing qualities would've made us friends real fast, despite who you really were. I...
I don't know what to say. I feel so bad that I could've EVER treated you the way I have in the past.
OH DIN I FEEL SO HORRIBLE! No, please don't have pity for me, as I don't wallow in it myself. I deserved this, I made
a sin, and God said I deserved this consequence.
I am SO sorry and I beg your forgiveness. Please forgive me for my wrong doings. Yes. I would LOVE for you to continue
That's if you still want to. If you do not, then I understand whole heartily.
But... I CANNOT help but feel like a first class heal! The THINGS I've said to you, all the ROTTEN things... -=Hits self
over head with dictonary=-
I guess in a way, I can never forgive myself for what I've done to you. Maybe you can, surely God can, but...(pause) I
cannot. I am sorry. The words play over and over again in my mind. Repeating itself like a broken record. Kind words, compassion,
pity, sadness and caring. You've showed me ALL those feelings. And as DG, I treated you like... yes, I'll say it... $H1T!!
-=Hits self over head again with her dictonary=-
Now I feed dirty, sinful and just plain scummy. >__< I LOATHE being angry. LOATHE IT! I have had the upbringing
of ALWAYS putting OTHER'S FIRST and MYSELF last. And despite the attitude I may have acquired over my past years, specially
from the brutal years of school, I am STILL last.
Bending over backwards for people, even ones I don't know quite as well as ones I do, going out on a limb, being VERY
gracious and generous, is my way of life. EVEN taking people I hardly know and doing whatever I can for them. Like Shiekie.
No, I don't know her as well as some, but, when she threatened to commit su1c1de, I was scared and deeply upset. Maybe my
actions may have been wrong, but my heart was in the right place, and I cared.
My only disadvantage... I don't expect much in return, but, when I should receive, I wish people would only show their
appreciation for what I've done for them,
and only treat me respectfully. I could NEVER ask as much back as I gave them... I could NEVER ask for anything more then,
appreciation and gratefulness for what I've done. I only ask for people to acknowledge what I do for them, and only respect
any wishes I may have in return. I don't like to be taken advantage of for my kindness.
I am a VERY giving person. Hell, I'd even give my OWN life for my Best Friend if need be. I care about her, and she's
like family to me. If she were dying, and I could save her life even if it meant my death, I'd sacrifice myself to do so.
Friends are VERY special to me, and I cherish them to the end, despite the status of the relationship. Whether it may
be, internet, personal, distant or close, I ALWAYS care, even if I NEVER see their face. Like I said, I only hate being taken
advantage of. Sometimes I ask myself, why am I so kind? I usually get kicked in the @$$ for it later on.
But no, it's my nature to be kind. And would I do it again? Does the ocean flow with shades of blue? Even though I may
end up the sap in the long run, I will always be the way I am. Whatever impact this letter may have on you, will not change
the way I will understand your reasons. I can FULLY understand if you NEVER wish to talk to me again after this. I have been
so wrong. But, I must say this.
Thank you for EVERYthing you've done for me. I will cherish your kindness till the day I take my last breath. Your kindness
will NOT be forgotten. Even though I may not see eye to eye with Cam on everything she believes in... Just tell her... She
-Jennifer (AKA Link's Queen and a First Class Heal)
Re: I have a LAST few words.
My point to all this... I NEVER treat ANYone's KINDNESS with ungreatfulness.
Whenever someone treats me kindly, or shows me compassion, I am FIRST to return the favor. And usually with more then
I was given. No, I DON'T expect much in return for what I do, I HARDLY ask much. I only had three wishes/rules.
1) Treat each other respectfully,
2) Don't argue
3) I didn't want Tilly responded to here.
My wishes were easy to follow, and NOT much to ask. Everyone KNOWS my feelings about Tilly, and the 7 month long war she
is trying to carry against me. I NEVER told ANYone to NOT talk to her, I just didn't want it done here, as her only goal when
she posts here, is to bash my character. She NEVER has one kind thing to say about me. I got SO upset when everyone started
replying to her. When everyone started going against the smallest request I asked. It WASN'T much to follow, and WASN'T much
to ask. If Tilly WASN'T so rude to me, I would NOT get upset when she posts here. At this point, I DON'T hate her, but, I
DO NOT want to be friends, as she stated the same towards me. I can forgive her, but, I CAN NEVER forget.
Over this pic. No, I was NEVER opposed to e-mail Silvertis, I was only opposed to doing so when people SCREAMED and DEMANDED
I did so, and ON THE SPOT. If I were asked a bit more calmly and WITHOUT the dictations, I would've obliged right away.
You MUST remember, attitude and the way you ask things, plays a BIG part on HOW someone will respond to what YOU want.
I leave ONE last option as DG has made me feel different at this point. Her letter made me cry and I at this point would like
to say this.
Okay, I will place hold on this guild. I will leave it open. I will REMOVE the background and e-mail Silvetris. Everyone
can return here, if they wish and resume their old positions before the Link's Sanctuary gets moving. Matt can have his postion
back with FULL functions as well as Wolfie.
I will return all my accounts here and put the count CLOSE to where it was.
Only rules will be. NO reesponding to Tilly. If she cannot say things WITHOUT getting smart and flinging insults at me,
then people need to talk to her ELSEWHERE. I feel in a way, she was trying to convince people I am some sorta demonic person,
and it plays ANOTHER part in the way I feel.
Second rule: Be nice to fellow people. No DEMANDING of ANYTHING, and asking is meerely enough.
Third: NO slinging insults around.
This is ALL I ask. All.
Nothing more. I could CARE LESS if anyone gives me ANYTHING. I only want to be acknolwedged on what I do for people, and
a little respect is all I ask.
I am DEEPLY SORRY for the way I acted. I feel so bad, SPECIALLY AFTER DG's email. It was only after people started talking
to Tilly when I asked several times for people not to do so, is WHY I got so upset. You need to understand that I am trying
to seperate myself from her. She DOESN'T want to even TRY to get along, she DOESN'T care how she makes me feel. She only wants
to laugh at me and sling more insults in my direction. For those reasons, I want to seperate myself from her. I DON'T want
to continue on with this bickerning like she wants to. I don't want to spend the next 10-20-30 years of my life arguing with
someone who DOESN'T give one crap about me.
And this guild, my friends, this place I WORKED so hard to make happen for people here, was thrown back in my face when
I felt stepped on by people bucking the one small rules I asked everyone to follow. It wasn't much to ask. But... I say these
last few things.
A bit may be a repeat and I hope ALL sees this. Even Matt, Deke, Bold and Cam. I am SO SORRY. I know words may mean NOTHING,
but, it's all I can do at this point. I FEEL $h1tty, scummy, sinful and like a heal.
I really need to talk to Cam again. She has been right about what she says, ALL ALONG. Cam... PLEASE e-mail me, IM me
or however you can. I REALLY need to talk to you, I need your tongue lashings, I need your wisdom and advice. Please yell
at me, I deserve it. You are ALWAYS right in what you say.
And at this point, I don't know what to do.
Bold: -=Sigh=- I feel SO SCUMMY! And D@MMN bloody wrong. I am sorry I yelled back. OH I WISH I COULD do more, but, apoligizing
is all I can do now. I was never mad that you thought I should contact Silvrestis, I just felt like I was being DEMANED to
do so, and right away. Actually, I should have just e-mailed her and mentioned to you I felt like I was being yelled at. I
could've addressed it better. I just DON'T like being demanded when i can be asked, but, it's no excuse and I apologize.
And, as I told DG, I can completely understand if you never want to talk to me again. But, please forgive me.
Matt: As stated to Bold. I feel the VERY same. Scummy, dirty, sinful, BLOODY RUDE and downright mean. I only felt you
were siding with Tilly and you were agreeing what she was saying towards me was true. I am NOT like she portrays me to be.
That is WHY I get so upset when my friends talk to her. I am SO worried she's going to paint this demonic image of me
to you guys, and then EVERYONE is going to laugh and hate me. I have NEVER hated you, how can I? You have been so kind as
well, like I have with you in the beginning, but I believe I have now repaid your kindness with total MALICIOUSNESS There
may NOT be much more I can do. I feel VERY bad.
I just HOPE you can forgive me, and I leave the option to return to the guild if you wish, position returned and admin
functions restored. On a side note, I also can fully understand if you never want to talk to me again. I just REALLY need
to say that, as I feel so AWFUL for the things I've said. Please forgive me.
I am not done. more coming. Please wait all.
To the rest of the guild.
As mentioned to everyone else previously, I feel very GUILTY for EVERYTHING I did. I feel so damn asinine, moronic, stupid,
sickening and nasty! I hate MYSELF for how I have been acting. Feel dirty for my words, and moronic for my actions. I know
words can be meaningless, of hold no value to those I wish to amend what I've done, and apologize to those I've hurt. All
the talk in the world cannot change what I've done. It's already happened, and what's done, is done. If I had the chance,
one chance, I'd go back in time, and correct my sinful mistake. Bringing back the way everything was, is probably way beyond
reach now, I just hope everyone in this guild, and out of it, can find it in their hearts to forgive me. I know how I got
this way. And I guess I can chalk it up to fear. I am deathly scared everyone is going to turn on me because of this ugly
image Tilly always tries to portray of me.
Ever since the first day our little feud begun, I have always been worried of the way she feels towards me would bleed
over into people I knew or friends I had, getting them to feel differently and possibly turn against me. It scares the $h1t
out of me. Scares me to near death that people are going to believe this horrible image she has painted for me, and turn against
on me. All I want to do is separate myself from her.
It's all I ask. This place is my sanctuary, a place where I can feel happy at, and not have to worry about anything. I
escape reality for a little while here. And I feel like it has been tainted with Tilly's horrible image of me. I NEVER intended
for this to happen. All I wanted was a little peace, peace from Tilly. A separation for her. She doesn't have any goodness
towards me, and all I want is separation from her. If everyone would just please associate with her elsewhere, I'd be happy.
It's all I want. Please understand all. I just want peace. If only words could do more. Please forgive me.
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